September 30, 2008
Ok, so I haven’t blogged in over a month. I guess right now I just feel like venting. So the top most thing that is on my mind is family. Not mine, my lover’s. Could I tell you, he has a big ass family to the point where I tend to get overwhelmed when I meet them in packs. But I really admire his family because they are really close to where it amazes me. His aunt passed away last night, which breaks my heart because it’s another loss for this summer to him and his family. At times like this, I see his family come together in prayer with a strong heart.
In July his other aunt passed away, I went to her house everyday for a week after she passed away to prayer with his family. The first night I came home, I cried to my mom because I don’t know what it feels like to have family like that because they pretty much disowned us 2 years ago when my grandma died. I think that was the hardest death for me to go through because of what happened after her death. I haven’t fully moved on from it yet.
Family is suppose to be there for you, for you to count on in times of need. I see that in his, I want that in mine.
September 30th, 2008 at 6:44 PM
im sorry to hear that things still hasnt changed much from your fam situation. i hope things get fixed soon. really. it’s hard to lose someone..
i know i’m still getting over the loss of my aunt.
October 9th, 2008 at 10:09 AM
Wow, you’ve described my family and my boyfriend’s family to a tee almost. My boyfriend’s family is super close, and my family, well, I’ve been pretty much disowned since birth. His family is super close, and when his Grandmother passed away, who pretty much raised him, I saw something in that family that I’ve never seen in any other family. The strength. The love. The fact that they could mourn her life, but then come to celebrate it. Her death was the hardest death for me to experience next to our friend Jeffy’s who died two weeks later. I hope that things get better for the family situation. Love the site.