I think I’m depressed…

I don’t smile a lot like I used to. I don’t feel I am at my best. I just don’t feel like that happy girl I used to be.

Apparently everyone around me is getting sick with fevers. Great huh? I’m surprised I still haven’t caught it. I mean I only wake up congested with lower back pains (which kills me especially when I sneeze). I’m still waiting to get attacked… I haven’t gotten sick (like really sick) in the longest time.

I’m pretty tired right now and I want to go home and sleep. Working like this is pretty difficult and I know that everyone will agree with me on this. I have basketball and volleyball tomorrow. We’ll see how that goes. I hope my back pains go away by then. It’s hard for me to bend my back. I should go to the doctor’s and have it checked out, which I will do soon if I don’t get lazy.

Another thing on my list of things to do is to start applying for nursing programs. I’ve applied at one so far, I need to apply to four more. Fun. Ahh.

My sweetie’s birthday is coming up. I haven’t even gotten the chance to get his gift yet and it doesn’t help when bills come all at the same time and are due pretty much the same time.

Next week is Valentine’s Day.. ehh.

My day didn’t start off all great. I want to get out of this hole already.

I’m tired. My knee hurts. My back is in pain. I’m going to get back into volleyball and possibly basketball. Be more active like how I was before. What made me want to do volleyball? Last night. Playing when I wasn’t up for it. Built frustration. Why? Because I can’t fucking play like I used to. I haven’t actually played a volleyball game in like 5 years. I haven’t played bball probably since last spring.

So after talking with my cousin Mykka I’ve come to realize that I’m not really 100% good at one thing because I do a lot of things. I’m only “okay” but not like “really fucking awesome.” I can play volleyball & basketball but I’m that good in it. I could sing, but not really. I like paintballing but I’m not good at that either. I can bowl but I’m not too good at that. 135 average. 158 average. Yeah I know I suck.

Whatever.

Disneyland or snowboarding?

I have a busy day tomorrow.

Clubbing this weekend? I haven no clue.

Can’t wait until May so I can go to Vegas with sweetie and friends along with my bowling league ha.

I’m hungry for sushi. No time to get some tomorrow.

I need a new phone already. Mine is being gay dammit.